You figure six months into this thing I would be ready to tackle this post head on, but I'm really not, especially when my tender-hearted three year old told me just last night that she missed her old school and her friends in Birmingham. How do you sum up a significant portion of your adult life thus far into one blog post? I can't, and I won't even try. The fact of the matter is that I have been avoiding writing this post because I knew it would bring to the surface all kinds of emotions that I have been stuffing away for the last six months.
If you had asked me 8 years ago if I would have ever been sad to leave Birmingham, I would have answered with a resounding no, and probably would have laughed in your face. But there's something to be said about your first home, where Matthew and I began our married life, where we navigated the ups and downs of our early marriage, grad school, and nursing school (twice). Where we made life-long friends that were with us through every milestone (even when we lived in Houston), and cried with us when God turned us another direction, e.g. Houston and Nashville. A place where we began to raise our children with friends who were so like-minded, we were convinced God's divine providence placed them in our life at just the right moment in time.
So, when people ask me how glad I am to be back "home", my answer is always "yes, but...". I could follow the "but..." portion of the sentence for days. So, instead of feeling sad on this perfectly beautiful Thursday, while my kids are upstairs napping (even Burton!), I am going to choose to be happy and look at it this way... I feel blessed to have been able to live in such a wonderful city, be friends with some of the most selfless people I know, to worship and fellowship with some of the most genuine followers of Christ, and to have worked with people who were both supportive and kind. I am blessed because our life there was so full, as God truly provided us a home, a true community in Birmingham, when at first glance, I didn't think it was possible.
So, while we are happy to be in Nashville closer to our families, a small part of me will always still think of Birmingham as "home".
These three crazies the weekend we moved. These aren't the only people I am talking about above, I just don't have pics of anyone else the weekend we moved :(